One of the things that saw a lot of attention while at the cottage this past week was meditation and reading about Buddhist thoughts. It only took about 10 minutes a day, but that's about all that was needed to start. As much as I identify with a lot of the Buddhist ideals - in particular, the principles of the Shambhala warrior - "being present" is very much a challenge. It's amazing how very easy it is to
not be present - to have your mind wandering away from the present situation, skipping from thought to thought. Sitting down for a little while each day just to try and be in one place for a little while reveals a lot that way. You get a chance to watch yourself and learn exactly what "state of mind" you're in. This isn't anything new - it's both something that's been well known for a while, and something that I've been exposed to for years - but it was refreshing to see it again this past week.
The difficulty comes from two things. First, our society as a whole seems to emphasize and reward not being present - "multitasking" being the best example. This has been well described by many other people, so I'm not going to hammer it here. At the cottage this was not a big deal, since the relative isolation and calmness rendered outside pressure moot. It does make a difference to everyday life, but that's a subject for another time.
The second difficulty is much more subtle: I'm really good at thinking of one thing while doing another. Often some of my best ideas come from thinking while doing something simple, like dishes or showering. It's obvious in many ways that being present is a good thing, but is it necessarily a good thing
all the time? If so, when do you plan ahead? Do you have to sit and take specific times for doing so? Admittedly, that's something I need to do anyway, but the need to do that all of the time seems a little much.
One idea that
horsetraveller came up with while we were discussing this is that "being present" frees you from the constant story-telling of past or imagined situations so that you can either focus on the here and now or workout things that are really important. There's a lot of merit to that: by having a well-tuned and well-focused mind, you keep it on the right task at the right time.
Another idea, very similar to this one, is that it's a learning curve. Like most skills, you have to learn it in isolation before you can learn how to use it moderately or in combination. For example, when learning to throw a frisbee you start by throwing it flat and level, teaching yourself not to angle the disc one way or another. Later, you start to angle it intentionally in order to get it to curve and go on a particular route for you. Perhaps it's the same thing here: you start by learning to be fully present, and then you can learn when to be present, and you can learn how to guide your thinking.
The Buddhists would probably frown on the idea of having any goal or desired outcome of meditation, insisting that it's good in and off itself and should not have any expectations. They're right in a way: everything should be done for itself. For example, going to the gym and pushing weights around to get a better body is unlikely to work out unless you actually enjoy going to the gym. At the same time, no matter what you practice it has to fit into the rest of your life. Practice doesn't mean getting ready for a presentation, no, practice means doing something to get better at it and to better yourself. It doesn't matter what you're doing, whether playing an instrument, speaking a language, flying, or meditating, each of these will effect the way that you think and approach your life.
I'm looking forward to trying to be more present and seeing how it affects my life. I just hope it can fit in well with what's already there.